Urm a lot has happened recently i felt it would be good if i posted... urm i recently got loads of hate on tumblr (a blogging site) telling me i was a whore, to go kill myself etc. Its not stuff i want to remind myself of. I thought it was all Tim but it turned out it was like everyone of my friends :/ it got into a really big thing and i cut myself (which is completely stupid and i regret it) i almost had to get stitches and it just made a lot of hassle with my parents and im going to be scarred for life. I have not only wrecked things for myself but i have wrecked things for everyone else. I knew it was just all the pressure building up recently i dont think i could take it anymore. However, im fine now. Im excited for christmas and slowly getting my friends back. It feels great. I dont want to be in a shit mood anymore but i spent the day on tumblr today for the first time in ages and i feel like shit so im going to try and avoid it. Im starting to like someone as well.... i dont want to like him because he lives so far away but i just get attached so easily so maybe i should try and back out a little bit, idek :/ anyway, thats it for today, im excited for christmas 2011 and i know im getting a guitar :) wooo!